BLOG #4 12/13/23

Internet Art or SUPERMODERN Art?

Hello..here to yap again. This is stuff that i've thought about for a while. I haven't really talked about these ideas with many people, so if they resonated, or feel like they could take a little more scrutiny i'd love to chat about them! But also, keep in mind that this is from the perspective of someone who takes everything too seriously.

A lot of what i'm about to talk about is based on vibes, but i consider myself a veteran when it comes to this posting shit. It's been almost 2 decades since the first time I ever posted art online. If u were introduced to art or mostly engaged with it on the internet but have a greater interest in it outside of fandom or porn then i feel like u may understand the lens of "internet art" and its stigma. Like its not something inherent to art made or shared online, but theres definitely times where i feel like it's a tangible thing that's affected how other people and myself have looked at art online. What I feel like applies mostly coincides with a combination of the use of digital tools and cartoonish/anime [definitely applies more to anime] inspired styles. It doesn't wholly apply to each on their own, but when together I think it just gives a certain level of online dorkiness..

I think that sort of association can be negative when you're trying to create new things like art. [Don't be offended, I am the biggest dork.] Mostly because it can be linked to media consumption. Like imo when i think of internet artists, these styles also generally lend themselves heavily towards what could be considered cartooning too, which has always been sort of stigmatized in the greater art world. But maybe the digital aspect is just another layer that adds to it, in addition to the dorkiness of so much of it being tied to or heavily inspired by anime or previous media you consumed/ would like to reference.

Like being an artist online and having a style well suited to cartoon/anime media, or any production could sometimes be considered a detriment imo.. The popular perception of a lot of these styles and the commercial reality of a lot of animation/ comics can be seen as something that devalues them. For these, much moreso than say a regular gallery piece, mass appeal is much more important. Dork shit has been sort of "in" for a while now. And an important aspect of most media is to be appealing enough to be sold or enjoyed on a larger scale.. It can definitely be a double edged sword! I don't think it really has to be seen as something completely positive or negative, just an observation that can negatively affect how some people come to see you or your art. [Doesn't mean they're always right] I do want to say that i don't think a lot of this is anyone's fault either; the average person has been exposed to a lot more things thru the internet so it only makes sense that we absorb a lot and have a lot we want to put out. I wouldn't say it makes u any less inspired, bc i mean honestly most of the fellow internet artists i've met have had dedication to art that far exceeds the artists i've encountered who have mainly engaged with art in purely traditional/irl settings..

Hopefully this doesn't sound too "animation is cinema" or whatever.. cuz tbh it's not a matter of all "internet art" needing to be taken more seriously. I don't think we should ban fanart and force every twitter artist to write about their feelings. I also don't think we should like, force anime pinups in galleries. [that's already been done] But i mean the internet is how a significant amount of people are exposed to art, and its shown in the inspirations of a lot of artists. I just feel more can be done to emphasize what this means to us.. especially those of us who learned art through less than traditional means. Like this is probably the most exposure people have ever had to what could be considered art, so it feels really lame how those results can be seen; offline and even online a lot of the time. Sometimes stuff just feels like it lacks any value, or I'm just throwing shit at the wall and if people think its cute then cool, maybe i can get some random person to recruit me to work on x production.. Like maybe that's the end point for a lot of us, but what if that's not the goal, or it simply doesn't end up happening? There's tons of great online artists who produce mostly original art too that I feel like could kill any type of gallery or traditional setting if given the exposure and resources.. theres a lot more potential than just having people end up on a production somewhere.

Not trying to be too ranty but it's frustrating to be interested in art as a whole, and being into experimentation and diving into new mediums etc. but not being able to escape, or utilize said "internet artist" label without being a part of some sort of legitimate institution, whether it be a gallery or school or even production studio. I could just blame it's sort of dorky nature or just the lack of respect for cartooning in general, but it's not like these issues are really exclusive to the internet. This is where I feel context becomes most important. Because maybe it could just be that there's not enough of it, and the way the internet functions makes it too impersonal. Or there's just so much that we're exposed to that its harder to really see the value in what we're looking at. And artists online typically don't see it as worth it to post a long winded explanation of what inspired them or whatever, it's just a timelapse if we're lucky lol. I'm guilty of all of these things, which is why i think it's so frustrating.

Like I would consider myself an "internet artist" based on how the average person would view my art.. but I also haven't drawn fanart regularly in like 5 years. And i do use various traditional mediums.. But maybe having so much art online with an "art style" can show a sort of resistance to leaving the comfy niche reference zone u've built for urself. Or an unwillingness to not make anything without first yelling out to the world the special interest that inspired you to make it, instead of the message u want to convey. Which on top of the sort of stigmatization cartooning has, commercial dorkiness, and use of digital tools makes it feel incompatable with how most art outside of the internet is seen. I wouldn't place too much blame on those factors tho, because i don't think these mean that art from the online sphere can't be taken more seriously. I guess ultimately i would say that in this case it'd be on me to be able to provide the context necessary for people to see a piece online and be willing to look at it outside of its immediate aesthetic appeal. Because i will admit that for a while, the only reason i did post online was to affirm to myself that i'd reached a certain level of skill, or the ability to please a lot of people aesthetically.

Hopefully all of this shit made sense. Kinda turned into me complaining. But also i think that being an artist mainly in internet spaces can be cool and can potentially have more value than it does now. Like being an "internet artist" doesn't have to be considered a real thing, because more labels wouldn't help anything. But maybe reconsidering how we produce and consume art that is intended to be posted online could be good. Like i guess my main idea is more just, what could i personally do to challenge the perception of an artist who mainly takes inspiration from what they've seen and shares their art online?

'till next time..

BLOG #3 8/15/23

new stuff

Hello everyone!

First i just want to say thanks for the continued interest in my art! The response from the comic has been great so far, site views jumped up a lot o_0. That makes me happy considering the amount of work put into making it. Same with the feedback i’ve gotten from ppl, most of it has been pretty positive. It can be kind of hard to gauge the general perception of things from the internet, tho. One day i was bored name searching and found that Leagueofcomicgeeks.com has ratings available for it on their site. The ratings were empty, so i went ahead and gave myself five stars for both comics. I encourage everyone to make an account and do the same...

If you’re wondering about whats next for Hell^2, i would say don’t get your hopes up too high. It isn’t dead, but it’s definitely not something i really want to do right now. The quality would definitely suffer too if i forced myself to make it a regular thing. I’d rather just take my time doing other stuff, or developing ideas. My writing process is about as backwards as you could assume lol but personally i just believe that u can’t rush a good dumb idea; they just sort of happen. There’s also a lot of places that i feel i could take the concept, and i don’t want to box it in too early. Maybe if i turned it into a Patreon thing where i could get support for it consistently the idea of frequent releases would be more appealing. But even then idk if that truly sounds realistic either lol.. Would honestly rather go all out in publishing, or making an OVA of some sort a-la Mezzo Forte or Trava: Fist Planet in the future. For now tho, I uploaded the second comic to gumroad here. Both comics are up on there, so if u want to download it there u can now. It’s still free, but any donations would be greatly appreciated. U can also find my Paypal and Venmo links at brainpoison.online/hell :]



Now to the other shit. I haven't blogged 4 a while, and was meaning to do so much more shit with the site this summer too lol...but i did a lot of cool stuff OUTSIDE so i think i’m excused.

The East Coast Brainpoison Graffiti Tour. (dub siren)(vine boom) It it was pretty much exactly what it sounded like.. me tagging tf out of any city i went to, with all of them being on the east coast :p When ordering stickers to sell at Momocon, i decided it'd be a good idea to reserve some for tagging and giving out to friends. I began my trek in late June, and ended in July. The goal was to hit up as many non-wack parts of each city i could, and just “be around” essentially. A true viber in rare form. The tour began in ATL, then went to MIA, NYC, and DC. Lots of stuff happened on these trips, but in order not 2 have yall here forever (or embarrass myself) i'll stick to talking about the cool stuff.

The second one was taken at a Gum(@Gumskiii) show. Was a good set… also the first of many oomfcons.

Here is Miami. I took a couple of these in Wynwood. Surprisingly enough, a month or two after i’d left i got an email from someone who said they saw a sticker there. Shoutout to @shimzini on Soundcloud!!

New York was my next stop. I kept trying to do this one tag becuz i rly liked it, until i realized i was spelling my name wrong.. My friend Mei (@aveemei) is very cool and has a lot of cool stuff and lets me crash on his couch.. literally could not be any cooler.

Got to meet more cool ppl who let me use their stuff @_@ Shoutout to Lola (@l0lalilac) and Iya (@czechwun) they had these crazy portable sticker printers that literally let u take scan a drawing and print it immediately.. very futuristic o_o I need to invest in one..

Wanted to shoutout all of the other people i got to meet, many of whom were also hardcore junglists :3 It was very cool to meet other fanatics lol. Support your local junglist and all that... Speaking of, u should look out for Lola’s jungle zine coming soon. It’s gonna have lots on cool stuff about the genre; I think if u are just a nerd who likes reading about stuff tho it should be interesting. (You also should read it because i got interviewed lolz) Seeing it really got me excited to think about how i would like to approach making one. Reading zines bring me lots of joy, and getting to go thru my friend’s collections. Not all zines are created equally tho.. i think lower fidelity/ diy ones are some of the coolest, just bc they take so much personal time and effort. Like not all zines are impressive visually or even that engaging, but seeing the effort put into them is pretty raw. Like even if its just some boring ugly piece of shit, or just some crank somebody took the time to personally compile and present all of that information about something they were interested in and make it available for you to read, without seeking much in return. Not trying to gas it up as impressive or anything i just think that’s cool. And a lot of them can be about rly random ass topics, but still fascinating and well-written. Like someone’s strange hyperfixation. Often the coolest thing you’ll find is something that you never wanted to see. Like u can’t get that type of knowlege from any archive page or social media account. You can in some sense by seeing lots of “rare” or “cool” stuff info dumped on u all the time. But certain types of information don’t really spread well online, like the finer details on any topic. And it spreading 100x faster does not help. Like idk, it’s just exhausting seeing companies pretty much only feed off of nostalgia and archives of things that were once rare or innovative (in a less meaningful way), while also being forced to witness how ravenous the internet is in it's consumption of anything new. One side involves slowly dying from chewing on your own brain while the other has u dying just from the sheer stress of trying to keep up. And then its like with trends being somewhat cyclical i fell like it's so easy for ppl to find something relatively old and bank on it being successful relatively soon, or fastrack nostalgia for new things. Basically the nicheification and race to reference pipeline is moving too fast for anything to mean anything! I consider it weaponized novelty. Or maybe i just miss when memes were funny for at least a couple of weeks instead of an hour..

Gonna stop waffling o_o..back to graffiti tour. The final city I hit was DC. It was hot as hell in each city I went to. I was melting in Chocolate City.


That’s about it when it comes to my vaca-I mean The East Coast Brainpoison Graffiti Tour. It was nice getting the chance to visit lots of friends, and meet new ppl as well. Being able to get into something else creatively felt good, too. It’s so nice getting to observe new surroundings.. Graffiti/handstyle is an artform that I’ve appreciated and had interest in pretty much since I can remember. It didn’t always stay with me, tho maybe it’s always been apparent in how I handle drawing text idk. I do know that it felt nice to get back into flexing all of those shelved creative muscles. Was a very welcome break from what I was doing before.. Will I do more things like this in the future? Who knows.. As for what I plan to work on next.. who knows. I know I’ma probably be doing something. I just don’t know what yet. I’ll keep shitposting everywhere, and trying to keep u all updated. If all else fails, u can always find out what I’m up to here @ brainpoison.online, or subscribe to my mailing list at brainpoison.online/mail. :]

Till next time.

BLOG #2 4/20/23

1 Month Anniversary (And 4/20)

Hey everyone ^^



I'm making stickers sheets! The designs have already been uploaded to the gallery. There's still some tweaks that need to be made, but overall i'm really happy with them. I'm excited to leave them in very precarious places. In a perfect world most of you would be able to as well but unfortunately for now I won't be selling any online :(( However i do plan on selling them in person at Momocon in ATL next month since i planned on going. It won't be at a table tho since i missed the application deadline by one day.... Think of it more like the mask salesman from Majoras Mask, except he's a junglist and even more suspicious. Really it's more of just a side thing to do there, but i'd love get my stickers out there a lil. I may not stand out enough in the sea of ahegao hoodies and cosplayers but we'll see. Right now i'm thinking $10 for a sheet with all 5 designs, but i didn't buy too many to sell so that could change.




Other than that i don't have any more major updates. Sorry to everyone who's been waiting on the comic, ik i've been saying it'll come out soon for a while now -,- TBH i haven't really been having too much trouble with the story, it's stayed pretty similar to the original draft. I've mainly struggled due to a lack of time and motivation. Not that i don't have either, but its like they never line up when i need them to lol. It's kind of ironic too because i cranked out most of the drawings for the first one in like a week or two, mainly to prove myself that I could work at that type of mangaka speed, or at least see what i could do. But now that ik i can work decently fast I don't feel the need to put myself through any unnecessary pressure again lol. being a weeb artist is hard... I really do wanna get it right though, I still think the story is interesting enough to tell. It'll also be longer than the first one, so hopefully that'll make up for the long wait.

See ya.

BLOG #1 3/20/23

Here Goes Nothing...

Hey everyone! The site and blog may seem very different- and thats because they are! It's been moved from godaddy, because i hated how limiting and overpriced it was. I dont even know why i picked them, their ads were weird as hell to me as a kid lol. Now for better or worse (hopefully better) the site is built completely by me. Optimization is hard but i will keep plugging away if i am made aware of any glaring issues. Also you may notice the old blogs are gone :( ... Its bc my dumbass forgot to archive them before deleting the old site so lets pour one out now for that lost content R.I.P. The Thing review and me hating on shitty djs those were definitely cultural shifting moments..


I like to think of it like this new blog as the actual tv show and the old one is like the pilot that became lost media or something... orz

For this first blog I wanna just talk about some goals that i have for the future. Career-wise i wouldn't say i have that many other than to be able to keep making stuff. I would really like to expand my horizons though, and diversify what i draw. I don't thumbnail enough, so i end up only drawing ppl standing around looking cool lol. Drawing more clothes and styles from reference is also something i'd like to put more effort into. For me it's like one of those things that i don't have to do, but i'm always happier with the end result when i do. My brain is just tired of the seeing the same clothes now. I was pretty heavy into "y2k" stuff (or i at least have had people associate me with it) and streetwear since forever, so my brain kind of defaults to it in certain ways. But i want to look at more stuff and actual reference instead of the same couple outfits my brain can squeeze out. Tbh i also wanna add more variety because i wouldnt't like being associated or labeled with certain aesthetics, or boxed in.


This is kind of me getting side-tracked but i feel like people are way too quick to assume how things "should be" which is very limiting, especially if your making something. And things get shared so fast because of the internet that theyre not given as much of a chance to evolve, or show much depth. When i see some trends to me a lot feel too perfectly niched, or deterministic in how heavily inspired they are. Like i feel like this kinda neuters a lot of future attempts that go for that trend /aesthetic? Cause for it to be recognizable it has to follow those conventions so as many ppl as possible so people can be like "oh you know___??" or "i love ___ style". Conventions aren't a problem usually, but like when stuff does get big now or comes back around it gets shared by a lot of people completely devoid of any nuance or context to how it evolved, or how diverse it could've been. I'm not saying like having an aesthetic is bad either but i guess i would say that the internet really exasperates the problem of reductiveness. This sucks too because people love to classify everything, just to be loud and wrong with stuff like that lol. Sometimes it really is best to just stfu and learn about sum, even if you thought you knew about it. Cause i really hate when something i like gets popular, but its like theres this huge gap between peoples understandings of it. Like i don't hate when stuff blows up but just seeing a lot of copycatting and misinfo is annoying lol. And then its like theres this rift of what people think it should be, because most people haven't really had the chance to engage with it in less superficial way... I say all this to say dickriding is bad and its cool to try digging as deep as possible with your interests.


**incomprehensible rant over**


Back to the main topic, i think my biggest goals moving forward are more personal. All that art mumbo jumbo doesn't mean nun to me if i'm not happy. I wanna stay consistent on the blog, and start talking to more artists again. If not online than maybe through going to more local events and being active. I know i said i would sell things like twice last year and didnt.. But i think i really do want to sell some stickers and prints of my comic and sketchbook at a table somewhere soon. Yall gonna have to be patient with me tho..


Thats about all i have for the first entry. Hope you enjoyed it! ^^